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[hathycol]

Crap.

I know perfectly well what today was, and it's the first time in about 7 years I haven't been to the Armistice Parade, and I feel damned guilty now. I had the minutes silence, before going downstairs and ripping into my sister for not respecting it herself. To which she laughed, and said: "So?"

I wanted to kick her head in. I don't disagree with war. I wish it didn't have to happen, but sometimes it does- would Hitler have been desposed any other way? And I think back to the hundreds of thousands of people who die in wars, and I want to cry, because I couldn't do it. I couldn't go out into the field of battle, I couldn't risk my own life, not in that way...

So that was why I always honoured Remembrance Sunday, and thats why I feel bloody guilty about not going to the service.

I'll go next year. And I'll carry a flag again, and I'll feel as though, finally, I'm doing my part to remember everyone who died, and everyone who's risking their lives as I type this.

Am I the only teenager who feels like this? Surely I can't be. But... god, the way my sister was about it was just so... awful... why am I one of a minority who seems to care about things like this?

Stupid sister. Stupid society.

~Hathy_Col~

Comments

[spiderdragon.livejournal.com]

You're not alone. I agree with you: History has to be remembered and respected.

same here

[nepygill.livejournal.com]

I couldn't go to remembrance sunday either, I was in Liverpool for my mums birthday party on saturday night and stayed over at my aunties, I would never have got back in time, and I feel really guilty about it because I havent missed one in years either, and to make it worse Hazel texted me on sunday morning asking why I wasn't there? I dont think hazels talking to me anymore :(

xx
Gill

Re: same here

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

I dont think hazels talking to me anymore :(

Just for missing the service? Egads.

god, I haven't seen either of you for aaagggeeess...

Re: same here

[hannahbassill.livejournal.com]

I really have no excuse, i just forgot, n i dont quite know how! It's the first one ive missed since... becoming a rainbow, i must have been about 5 or so! Man, 10years of parade services n then i forget. Well, that sure is one lame way to break a tradition. -_- Mind you, this is the first one since i quit Guides, so i didnt have a leader moaning at me about it for weeks on end to remind me. Meh.
Han-x-