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Feb. 20th, 2006 05:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hathycolRight. Housing? She is not yet sorted, because I went and more or less cried at the accommodation lady. She didn't look sympathetic, told me I would be able to get in by myself (I'm skint, you see, and have proof for it) but a a group we have a lot more problems. We're looking for a sixth. We will take anyone, up to and including axe murderers.
We'll even take people who leave their hair in the shower drain.
Messages are posted everywhere we might somehow manage to get hold of someone, and![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
susie22 (who is a STAR) has managed to get hold of someone who hopefully won't be too scared and come and live with us, but here's hoping. If we have a sixth, we have a damn good case to get a house. With five, yeah, we have a good case but it's not as good as it could be.
Oh, by the way, I'm back in St Andrews. However did you guess? I have spent all day running about to speak to people, everyone else is going out to The Tempest tonight but I can't afford it due to the fact I'm an idiot with finances and my tuition fees went all wrong, I have two lectures to download and listen to, a film to get out of short loan and watch, tutorial notes to read and sort out and oh god eeep.
Not entirely happy at home yet. The atmosphere is very odd right now because everyone isn't sure where they stand with, well, anything, and I'm desperately overriding the urge to clean in favour to sort out Housing Crisis O' Doom. I haven't unpacked yet in favour of manic posting and flailing.
Also, my mother? NOT OF THE USEFUL. "You should have managed your money better," she says.
"I am!"
"Well, you're not if you can't afford private housing! What's your loan for, eh?"
I DON'T KNOW, YOU SEE, BECAUSE THE SYSTEM IS INHERANTLY BIASED TOWARDS PEOPLE WHO'S PARENTS ARE ABLE TO PAY THEIR FUCKING ACCOMMODATION AND TUITION FEES, OH ISN'T THE WORLD A FUN PLACE?
It's not really the money thing. No, honestly, it isn't. No matter how much I complain, things are going to be a bit tight but I can manage. I can even manage next year because the tuition fees thing is not an issue (oh, bliss), presuming I get a 2.1 and am as such a Good Investment. I cannot manage in anything but CheapAss Accomodation, however, and yeah, I am in my overdraft right now and hoping and clinging onto it as a lifeline, and I am searching for jobs like there's no tomorrow, and I will cope but it's honestly not much fun right now. It's not a case of me looking after my money badly, I am doing the best I damned well can, and I phoned home for a bit of support rather than a terse "Look after your money better."
If anyone - I mean anyone - is thinking "Erm, why did you go to Cambridge this weekend?" then fair enough. It's a reasonable enough thought, because why am I buggaring off to Cambridge on what is in instrinsically expensive jaunt and buggars me up for days in terms of my schedule and workload and general exhaustion because of only having three hours sleep?
It's my one fucking luxury. The car is very rarely used. I don't eat nice food, I don't snack, I go out twice a week and generally spend perhaps £8 total on socialising in a week, and I will probably go insane and start killing people if I don't go, simply because, well, it's horrible being apart and yeah.
I cannot deal with all of this right now, so I'm going to go and finally unpack my bag and then do some work and resist the urge to curl into a small ball until it all goes away.
~Hathy_Col~
We'll even take people who leave their hair in the shower drain.
Messages are posted everywhere we might somehow manage to get hold of someone, and
susie22 (who is a STAR) has managed to get hold of someone who hopefully won't be too scared and come and live with us, but here's hoping. If we have a sixth, we have a damn good case to get a house. With five, yeah, we have a good case but it's not as good as it could be.Oh, by the way, I'm back in St Andrews. However did you guess? I have spent all day running about to speak to people, everyone else is going out to The Tempest tonight but I can't afford it due to the fact I'm an idiot with finances and my tuition fees went all wrong, I have two lectures to download and listen to, a film to get out of short loan and watch, tutorial notes to read and sort out and oh god eeep.
Not entirely happy at home yet. The atmosphere is very odd right now because everyone isn't sure where they stand with, well, anything, and I'm desperately overriding the urge to clean in favour to sort out Housing Crisis O' Doom. I haven't unpacked yet in favour of manic posting and flailing.
Also, my mother? NOT OF THE USEFUL. "You should have managed your money better," she says.
"I am!"
"Well, you're not if you can't afford private housing! What's your loan for, eh?"
I DON'T KNOW, YOU SEE, BECAUSE THE SYSTEM IS INHERANTLY BIASED TOWARDS PEOPLE WHO'S PARENTS ARE ABLE TO PAY THEIR FUCKING ACCOMMODATION AND TUITION FEES, OH ISN'T THE WORLD A FUN PLACE?
It's not really the money thing. No, honestly, it isn't. No matter how much I complain, things are going to be a bit tight but I can manage. I can even manage next year because the tuition fees thing is not an issue (oh, bliss), presuming I get a 2.1 and am as such a Good Investment. I cannot manage in anything but CheapAss Accomodation, however, and yeah, I am in my overdraft right now and hoping and clinging onto it as a lifeline, and I am searching for jobs like there's no tomorrow, and I will cope but it's honestly not much fun right now. It's not a case of me looking after my money badly, I am doing the best I damned well can, and I phoned home for a bit of support rather than a terse "Look after your money better."
If anyone - I mean anyone - is thinking "Erm, why did you go to Cambridge this weekend?" then fair enough. It's a reasonable enough thought, because why am I buggaring off to Cambridge on what is in instrinsically expensive jaunt and buggars me up for days in terms of my schedule and workload and general exhaustion because of only having three hours sleep?
It's my one fucking luxury. The car is very rarely used. I don't eat nice food, I don't snack, I go out twice a week and generally spend perhaps £8 total on socialising in a week, and I will probably go insane and start killing people if I don't go, simply because, well, it's horrible being apart and yeah.
I cannot deal with all of this right now, so I'm going to go and finally unpack my bag and then do some work and resist the urge to curl into a small ball until it all goes away.
~Hathy_Col~
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Date: 2006-02-20 07:43 pm (UTC)Trust me I am skint. And I spent some money on my from Christmas and about £5 or £6 pounds a week extra and I still don't have money......
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Date: 2006-02-20 07:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-20 08:29 pm (UTC)I was reading the other day the LJ of this guy who lived in the library at New York University because he just could not afford the accommodation, but after a year or something the media found out about the journal and it was all in the papers and, and the uni gave him temp accommodation until they sorted out financial help for him. I think if it hadn't have been all over the media, and they'd have found him in the library, they'd just've kicked him out.
Is the library at St Andrews nice?
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Date: 2006-02-20 09:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-20 10:12 pm (UTC)Nothing I can say would really help at this moment in time. I just really hope it works out, sweetie.
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Date: 2006-02-20 10:21 pm (UTC)Aw, I know all about curling in a ball 'til it all goes away, trust me. *hugs* If you ever need to bitch about housing down the phone at someone, I'm always here.
Can you any grants or anything off the university? Or the government? I'm sure there are meant to be extra money type things around for people who's parent's can't pay their tuition fees and such. (I am probably too naive in expecting there to be some sensible government sorting out mechanism in place for things like this. After all, said government does not provide enough damn loan for accomodation. Grr.)
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Date: 2006-02-20 11:24 pm (UTC)You can't be expected to pay for everything from just your loan. There just isn't enough of it. I'm lucky in that my dad pays my accomodation, but if I had to pay it all, with that and tuition fees I would be left with about £25 a month to live on, and Hull is meant to be one of the cheapest places to live, so I'm guessing you have it worse, and no matter how well you manage your money, you can not live on that little. My friend Ian, who NEVER goes out, struggles to live off £30 a week. Have you been to the university finance people? Surely they have a hardship fund or something to make sure you don't starve?
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Date: 2006-02-20 11:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-21 12:30 am (UTC)kuddos. And try to remain optimistic - you'll be out of there in a while, with a degree, an adoring fiancee, and the whole world waiting for you. (That's what I keep telling myself, minus the adoring fiancee bit)
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Date: 2006-02-21 11:17 am (UTC)However, I reckon I can get away with living in my car, perhaps, so that's okay.
YOU CAN COME AND LIVE WITH US IN THIRD YEAR YES IT WILL BE MARVELLOUS. Come to St A's! I can be your academic mum!
(Applications are being notoriously bad this year...)
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Date: 2006-02-21 11:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-21 11:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-21 11:19 am (UTC)Which is where the worry lies right now.
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Date: 2006-02-21 11:20 am (UTC)Student loan day in two months! Yay!
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Date: 2006-02-21 11:21 am (UTC)Thanks, hun.