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Mar. 12th, 2006 04:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hathycolOh dear.
I'm not angry any more, which is a positive thing, or alternatively I've just stopped noticing. I have swung around to Irrational Tears which is so much worse.
I blame my mother.
I sobbed my eyes out after that bloody bloody stupid argument, which I don't normally do EVER. Then I cried at Mickey Blue Eyes. Then I went to bed, and that was okay, and today was going quite well, other than grumpiness and a sort of "eep! workload!"
Now the radio is playing 'Hurt' by Johnny Cash and I'm crying again. For no good reason, it's stupid, and I'm writing about it to try and make it go away. And now it's Coldplay 'Speed of Sound' which also makes me cry because it was my song of summer, the night I passed my driving test and went out in the car by myself for the first ever time.
Also I am eating myself to death but I am eating fruit and also it is a natural reation to stress for me.
Positives to the Pill:
1. As of yesterday, I am now safe for sex without barrier contraception.
2. My skin is, actually, really improving in terms of acne but it geting very dry, which I suspect is more that the heating is constantly on in this house.
Yeah. Could do without the crying it's causing because I'm sat here to myself going "WHY YOU STUPID BINT?" when I have to go and rehearse a comedy play in, argh, twenty minutes...
I'm not angry any more, which is a positive thing, or alternatively I've just stopped noticing. I have swung around to Irrational Tears which is so much worse.
I blame my mother.
I sobbed my eyes out after that bloody bloody stupid argument, which I don't normally do EVER. Then I cried at Mickey Blue Eyes. Then I went to bed, and that was okay, and today was going quite well, other than grumpiness and a sort of "eep! workload!"
Now the radio is playing 'Hurt' by Johnny Cash and I'm crying again. For no good reason, it's stupid, and I'm writing about it to try and make it go away. And now it's Coldplay 'Speed of Sound' which also makes me cry because it was my song of summer, the night I passed my driving test and went out in the car by myself for the first ever time.
Also I am eating myself to death but I am eating fruit and also it is a natural reation to stress for me.
Positives to the Pill:
1. As of yesterday, I am now safe for sex without barrier contraception.
2. My skin is, actually, really improving in terms of acne but it geting very dry, which I suspect is more that the heating is constantly on in this house.
Yeah. Could do without the crying it's causing because I'm sat here to myself going "WHY YOU STUPID BINT?" when I have to go and rehearse a comedy play in, argh, twenty minutes...
