hathycol | Sep. 7th, 2003

*cue Frodo End Of TTT Voice*

I can't do this anymore...

My life seems to have tumbled down around my ears over the last week. College is big, and scary, and I am making friends, it's just a slow process. Although I love the lessons. I do. They're really spiffy, the teachers are all so friendly (and I can call them Sue and Dave! FIRST NAMES!) and I'm just loving it. I really am. The problem is coming home and wanting to die with the sheer tiredness. I know I'll get used to it, I'm just feeling very over-whelmed at the moment.

My whole life spiralled in on Saturday. It was supposed to be a simple, Red Dwarf Day. Because I am a Bad Person, I didn't check the date. The date being the 6th September. Which is Katie's birthday. And THEN I get a job at Homebase, which decides it'll be a super idea to have my training on Saturday. (More on that hell later)

So, to be frank, I'm bloody shattered and haven't done my Politics homework yet. Mind you, I do have about 3 hours free tomorrow, due to breaks and a free half period. I'll do it tomorrow. Or tonight. Whatever.

So, Friday was fun. The bus went well (egads!) despite a huge influx of people and lessons were a laugh, despite timetable being confusing. Having no bells is bizarre. Media studies was a laugh, though. We had to go and find someone we didn't know and find out three facts about them. Being me, I started chatting to the girl in the X-Men t-shirt, and we clicked, and ended up hugging by the end of the lesson, so that was fun. Also a strange game involving throwing a fluffy dinosaur around and every time we caught it, you had to name a film. Ironically, it ended with me and

flickerswitch battling it out. "Deep Impact!" "Ned Kelly!" Hmmm. See a theme?

After college, I toddle home and go to Guides, which consisted of me holding my head in my hands going "I don't want to go to work!" I then go home, and sleep, until eight the next morning. What's worrying is how I considered this a lie-in. And then I went To Work.

Oh, I hate it. I do. I want early retirement, and I want it tomorrow. There was six of us, and we bonded over hatred of the videos. I spent 6 hours being told about solvents, manual handling, offensive weapons, shrinkage, disabled rights, uniform, fire safety and a lot of other stuff I didn't pay attention to. My uniform is currently hanging on the line outside. It doesn't fit, to say the least. It's EXACTLY like Gimli in TTT- too tight across chest, but falling down to the floor. But the videos... god. Made in the 80's (possibly the 1880's) they were full of bad hair and bad acting, and every time the supervisor left the room, we were plotting to press fast-forward and to throw bricks through the TV screen. I scared myself at how violently I was playing "What Would Legolas Do?" in my head through "Solvents, You And The Law". I didn't know I could imagine blood so vividly.

Anyway. Staggered home from that and went to Katie's as a last-minute "Happy Birthday!" celebration. I'd like to apologise to Katie and her mother now for eating so much. I was completely starved, and I didn't stop eating for a good couple of hours (despite having to give up the crisps to Lorna). We then watched The Ring which wasn't half as scary as I was lead to believe (after it finished, I was just like "That was it?", although I was terrified throughout) and Two Weeks Notice which I didn't pay much attention to. My brain had shut down, and by about 11.30, when I got home, I was incoherant, frankly. So, so tired.

Woke up this morning at 9.30, and swore violently and repeatedly about the buzzsaw that the neighbour was running. Slammed window shut, slammed sisters window shut, slammed bathroom windo shut, and the noise was still going around the house. I must of dropped off, however, since I woke up again at 11.00. Ahhhhh. Heaven. I'm still slightly comatose now, but it's just nice. I lay in bed and read a bit of The Other Wind (I love Earthsea. I do. I really, really do) and just have generally slobbed all day now.

This is my life for the next two years. I think I'll like it, I just need to get used to it!

Oh, and yay

nepygill for updating. I think threatening to kick her ass if she doesn't update works.

~Hathy_Col~