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Nov. 16th, 2003 05:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hathycolBefore I go into my embittered rant, there is something I must say:
A VERY HAPPY PURPLE BIRTHDAY TO![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
purplerainbow!!! May you have many, many more you lovely person you.
And now I'm going to have to go into my embittered rant, which I do apologise for.
I hate my sister. I hate her with a deep and burning passion. She is a stupid, vacuous, airheaded little bitch who is about an impressionable as a ball of warn wax, and all of her pathetic little life she's decided it's a super idea to try and be me, despite the fact that since she was about six I have been trying to get away from her, up to the point of specifically choosing a room when we moved in here that was on the other end of the house.
(This all went wrong quite soon, due to the fact that the room on the other end of the house was bloody freezing and I had to move to the nearer room.)
And then I found fandom, which involved people who didn't live in Ormskirk and Megan didn't know and she couldn't make snotty coments about. And it was mine. I have never had anything that she hasn't aped and suddenly fandom was My Big Moment. It was one of the reasons why I immersed myself in it so deeply, and it's one of the reasons why I love it so damn much.
Recently, she's been showing some signs of Buffy fangirlishness, but I felt it was safe to let it lie, mainly since it's finished showing on telly, I prefer Angel, she was only going gooey over Spike and it's not a main fandom anyway.
What happened today to change all this?
Last night, Megan went to a sleepover with a girl who has all the symptoms of Turning Into A Proper Fangirl. Last year, it was OrlandoBloomitis. She even learnt Grelvish, the dodgy Dungeons and Dragons Elvish and looked quite heartbroken when I gentlyruined her hopes and dreams informed her that Tolkien didn't write that kind and that no, Legolas wouldn't know it. This year, she's moved on AlysonHanniganitis which translated in Buffy fangirlishness. Anyway, Megan was at this girl's house. She came home today and said "Mum? Can I go to a convention?"
I nearly flipped my lid there and then. I don't care how much of a bitch I'm being, fandom is my fucking thing and she can get the fuck away from it! I care about fandom! It matters to me! I spend time watching shows and reading books, talking about it, randomly squeeing, writing and even drawing, but not Megan. She just thinks it'd be cool.
So, Mum says: "Well, where is it?"
Turns out it's the "Oh... you know... Buffy one..." convention taking place in the Norbreck Castle Hotel of all places.
So, I stupidly say: "The Senior Partners one or the generic Buffy bad guys one?" (I know this due to the fact I stared longingly at the advert for these cons due to Gig Edgley attendance) I am then forced to go and get aforementioned magazine, and show Megan the article. Apparently, it's the second one.
So, they go and look at the website while I quietly simmer with rage in the corner. Then Megan says: "Hey, who's Amy Madison?"
I stare. Really. She's even talking about the actual character. So I snarl: "Amy the Rat."
"Oh, her!"
Cue more looking at website. "Who does Gina Torres play?"
"Jasmine! And she's in it, as is Nathan Fillion due to the unfortunate demise of Firefly which Joss Whedon created bue you don't know about because you only have a shallow and superficial interest!"
Eventually, I stomp out angrily and buggar off to my bedroom. Megan then has the nerve to storm in and ask me what was up. I was irate, not only because she was interrupted my much longed for Sunday off to watch a LOTR marathon. So, I snap: "Why can't you just get your own hobby?"
"But you've been to three conventions! You always look like you're having fun!"
"That's because, actually, I know what I'm talking about, I'm invovled in the fandom and I actually had friends there!" (Which is true. I go to cons because I want to meet up with people, because I love Stargate and because, you know, it's addictive.)
"Well? I'm a Buffy fan! You're not!" This was not a good thing to say to me. Excuse me, I was the one that told her who Gina Torres was! At least I fucking know who Amy Madison is! Then she makes the mistake of continuing. "I know what all the episodes are, and I've seen them all!"
"NO YOU HAVEN'T!! IF YOU REMEMBER, I WAS THE ONE THAT DID THAT! God! Would you know the episode Tabula Rosa if it fell on you?"
"I know all the words to the songs on the musical, too!"
"I know all the words to the Enterprise theme tune, do you see me at an Star Trek convention?"
"Why are you being like this?"
"Because! Fandom is my thing! Mine! Don't you get it? I don't get anything to myself! You don't even care about Buffy, not really! Why go?"
This went on for a while, and at one point threatened to get quite nasty I stood up from my bed and attempted to tower over Megan, counteracted by the fact that she's taller than me and did the towering instead. Mum then came in and broke us up, saying that "Megan is not copying you, and if you don't stop it no ones going to a convention again, and I don't care how old you are!"
I was in such a bad mood by this point, I made the mistake of shouting back. You just don't shout back at my mother. It's not worth the hassle. Shouting back "Oh yeah? AT LEAST I ACTUALLY HAVE MOTIVATION TO GO AND I'M GOING MYSELF AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME SO BLOODY THERE!"
The end result of this meant that I have spent the day in my bedroom, and came down about an hour ago and stomped onto the computer. Mum appears to be talking to me, in that she made me a cup of tea. Megan hasn't spoken a word to me, and that's how it's going to stay. Dad, on the other hand, appears to be siding with me. He was cleaning out his wardrobe today, which contains everything from his old hippy rocker days. (Think my darling father looks like a hobo now? Should see the older photos.) Worrying though it is, he had quite good fashion sense back then and has bequethed me his old German army jacket thing. He also doesn't want Megan to go the convention, since he agrees that she 'won't get the point'. Yay him. Like Dad. Hate sister.
I don't even know why I'm getting so worked up. I just... why does she always have to copy? Why can't she get her own thing? Why does she have to try and be me? I'd be glad if she'd turn into a scary techno slut type thing (like she actually is) because then we'd be different.
I hate her. I do. I just wish she'd go away and leave the house in peace. Wish I'd been an only child.
I'm going to go now.
~Hathy_Col~
A VERY HAPPY PURPLE BIRTHDAY TO
purplerainbow!!! May you have many, many more you lovely person you.And now I'm going to have to go into my embittered rant, which I do apologise for.
I hate my sister. I hate her with a deep and burning passion. She is a stupid, vacuous, airheaded little bitch who is about an impressionable as a ball of warn wax, and all of her pathetic little life she's decided it's a super idea to try and be me, despite the fact that since she was about six I have been trying to get away from her, up to the point of specifically choosing a room when we moved in here that was on the other end of the house.
(This all went wrong quite soon, due to the fact that the room on the other end of the house was bloody freezing and I had to move to the nearer room.)
And then I found fandom, which involved people who didn't live in Ormskirk and Megan didn't know and she couldn't make snotty coments about. And it was mine. I have never had anything that she hasn't aped and suddenly fandom was My Big Moment. It was one of the reasons why I immersed myself in it so deeply, and it's one of the reasons why I love it so damn much.
Recently, she's been showing some signs of Buffy fangirlishness, but I felt it was safe to let it lie, mainly since it's finished showing on telly, I prefer Angel, she was only going gooey over Spike and it's not a main fandom anyway.
What happened today to change all this?
Last night, Megan went to a sleepover with a girl who has all the symptoms of Turning Into A Proper Fangirl. Last year, it was OrlandoBloomitis. She even learnt Grelvish, the dodgy Dungeons and Dragons Elvish and looked quite heartbroken when I gently
I nearly flipped my lid there and then. I don't care how much of a bitch I'm being, fandom is my fucking thing and she can get the fuck away from it! I care about fandom! It matters to me! I spend time watching shows and reading books, talking about it, randomly squeeing, writing and even drawing, but not Megan. She just thinks it'd be cool.
So, Mum says: "Well, where is it?"
Turns out it's the "Oh... you know... Buffy one..." convention taking place in the Norbreck Castle Hotel of all places.
So, I stupidly say: "The Senior Partners one or the generic Buffy bad guys one?" (I know this due to the fact I stared longingly at the advert for these cons due to Gig Edgley attendance) I am then forced to go and get aforementioned magazine, and show Megan the article. Apparently, it's the second one.
So, they go and look at the website while I quietly simmer with rage in the corner. Then Megan says: "Hey, who's Amy Madison?"
I stare. Really. She's even talking about the actual character. So I snarl: "Amy the Rat."
"Oh, her!"
Cue more looking at website. "Who does Gina Torres play?"
"Jasmine! And she's in it, as is Nathan Fillion due to the unfortunate demise of Firefly which Joss Whedon created bue you don't know about because you only have a shallow and superficial interest!"
Eventually, I stomp out angrily and buggar off to my bedroom. Megan then has the nerve to storm in and ask me what was up. I was irate, not only because she was interrupted my much longed for Sunday off to watch a LOTR marathon. So, I snap: "Why can't you just get your own hobby?"
"But you've been to three conventions! You always look like you're having fun!"
"That's because, actually, I know what I'm talking about, I'm invovled in the fandom and I actually had friends there!" (Which is true. I go to cons because I want to meet up with people, because I love Stargate and because, you know, it's addictive.)
"Well? I'm a Buffy fan! You're not!" This was not a good thing to say to me. Excuse me, I was the one that told her who Gina Torres was! At least I fucking know who Amy Madison is! Then she makes the mistake of continuing. "I know what all the episodes are, and I've seen them all!"
"NO YOU HAVEN'T!! IF YOU REMEMBER, I WAS THE ONE THAT DID THAT! God! Would you know the episode Tabula Rosa if it fell on you?"
"I know all the words to the songs on the musical, too!"
"I know all the words to the Enterprise theme tune, do you see me at an Star Trek convention?"
"Why are you being like this?"
"Because! Fandom is my thing! Mine! Don't you get it? I don't get anything to myself! You don't even care about Buffy, not really! Why go?"
This went on for a while, and at one point threatened to get quite nasty I stood up from my bed and attempted to tower over Megan, counteracted by the fact that she's taller than me and did the towering instead. Mum then came in and broke us up, saying that "Megan is not copying you, and if you don't stop it no ones going to a convention again, and I don't care how old you are!"
I was in such a bad mood by this point, I made the mistake of shouting back. You just don't shout back at my mother. It's not worth the hassle. Shouting back "Oh yeah? AT LEAST I ACTUALLY HAVE MOTIVATION TO GO AND I'M GOING MYSELF AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME SO BLOODY THERE!"
The end result of this meant that I have spent the day in my bedroom, and came down about an hour ago and stomped onto the computer. Mum appears to be talking to me, in that she made me a cup of tea. Megan hasn't spoken a word to me, and that's how it's going to stay. Dad, on the other hand, appears to be siding with me. He was cleaning out his wardrobe today, which contains everything from his old hippy rocker days. (Think my darling father looks like a hobo now? Should see the older photos.) Worrying though it is, he had quite good fashion sense back then and has bequethed me his old German army jacket thing. He also doesn't want Megan to go the convention, since he agrees that she 'won't get the point'. Yay him. Like Dad. Hate sister.
I don't even know why I'm getting so worked up. I just... why does she always have to copy? Why can't she get her own thing? Why does she have to try and be me? I'd be glad if she'd turn into a scary techno slut type thing (like she actually is) because then we'd be different.
I hate her. I do. I just wish she'd go away and leave the house in peace. Wish I'd been an only child.
I'm going to go now.
~Hathy_Col~
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Date: 2003-11-16 07:12 pm (UTC)Probably not the best time to say so, but you convey your emotions incredibly through words, i am seriously feeling for you here. I know what it's like to have a sibling who takes the one thing that really matters to you, it is fucking frustrating and i wouldn't wish it on anyone. Hopefully it's a passing phase for her, i really hope it is, because when you need fandom to get you away from RL, the last thing you need is the two colliding. You know, if there's anything i can do etc... =o)
(and i feel like crap friend for asking this, but i've never been able to work it out, is Megan older or younger than you?)
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Date: 2003-11-16 07:14 pm (UTC)Ah, I should have said.
Megan is younger. 13, in fact, currently in Year Nine.
And thank you for saying I get my feeling across- I look at my LJ posts sometimes and think "Gyah, thats dull..."
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Date: 2003-11-16 07:20 pm (UTC)Ouch, that's gotta be bad. And no way are your posts dull, your LJ has to be my favourite on my entire friendslist =oD
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Date: 2003-11-16 07:24 pm (UTC)I'm so shallow, but that has really cheered me up. I'm going to go and watch the video of Have I got News For You again (it's very LOTR based. Ian Mackellen last week, and this week for one of the headlines: "Elf men arrested for..." "Fondling hobbits!") whilst plotting death of sibling.
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Date: 2003-11-16 07:56 pm (UTC)Ahahaha, I saw that last night! I'm just glad you're cheeried up a bit, and good luck with the whole plotting death thing!
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Date: 2003-11-18 07:13 pm (UTC)And big hugs for everything else. I completely understand. Younger siblings should be shot at birth...