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Aug. 7th, 2005 10:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hathycolI've broken up with Clare.
There, it's said. It happened tonight. There wasn't an argument, there wasn't dramatic fisticuffs, there was just the realisation that I'm... not right for her anymore and it's unfair to her to carry on this way. I love her and see her as my best friend, but somewhere the spark... I don't know. I can't explain it. I don't think I want to. Not right now.
There are a lot of people who will probably want to hate me, and god, I hope they don't. I didn't do this maliciously or hurtfully and yes, I feel like a piece of crap. Maybe I'm meant to. If you want to leave amessage telling me that I am a nasty bitch then you may be right. I... I don't know, I need to know that my friends still care about me, but if they don't, I will be... I don't know, I can't find the adjective or verb or whatever it is.
She knew something was up for a couple of weeks. So did I. It was better to end it, because otherwise I'd hurt her more than I have. It may be craven of me to ask for comments, but a buzz to know that someone out in cyberspace doesn't hate me would be a blessing, right now.
There, it's said. It happened tonight. There wasn't an argument, there wasn't dramatic fisticuffs, there was just the realisation that I'm... not right for her anymore and it's unfair to her to carry on this way. I love her and see her as my best friend, but somewhere the spark... I don't know. I can't explain it. I don't think I want to. Not right now.
There are a lot of people who will probably want to hate me, and god, I hope they don't. I didn't do this maliciously or hurtfully and yes, I feel like a piece of crap. Maybe I'm meant to. If you want to leave amessage telling me that I am a nasty bitch then you may be right. I... I don't know, I need to know that my friends still care about me, but if they don't, I will be... I don't know, I can't find the adjective or verb or whatever it is.
She knew something was up for a couple of weeks. So did I. It was better to end it, because otherwise I'd hurt her more than I have. It may be craven of me to ask for comments, but a buzz to know that someone out in cyberspace doesn't hate me would be a blessing, right now.
