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[hathycol]

So, tonight I went out with Katie and Mohawk to see The Blues Brothers musical thingie oojy-whatsit and I was having a really bloody good time. I was quite happy watching everyone else dance on stage, having no personal wish to join them and just enjoying the music and the dancing.

Except I haven't been good recently. And I stopped counting ym wheat intake the last few days, instead going LALALALA I DON'T CARE and ignoring the fact that I've had lots of bread, and pasta, and tonight I had a very wheaty cheese sauce.

This is the first time I've had to come home from something. I'm wrapped in my pajamas and my quilt and I've taken the suppressant and when it kicks in I'll go to bed.

I was enjoying that show. This isn't the first time it's been so bad I've had to skip out early from something, but normally I can hold on and put up with it, but oh sweet lord this is so bad I think I might actually throw up. It's not nausea - that's normal, you know, I've been hungover and I know that feeling - but this is the horrible, rolling sensation on my body trying to digest itself, like there's some sort of battle going on inside and all I can do is cling on and wait while my body tris to get rid of things it doesn't like and it's still deciding how it's going to do that. Let's pray it just digests the fucking stuff. I can't describe what it feels like to people who don't have this stupid, lousy 'oh tough luck' condition that might not be serious, that might well be shared by most of the population, but is still fucking shite. It's not the end of the world. I'm not paralysed by pain, I'm not crying from it, so I'm hardly critical, but I need to be alone and curl up somewhere warm and I'm amazed I lasted as long as I did in the show.

I'll be okay tomorrow, if a bit cautious about what I eat. But for now, I just want it to go away.

And I feel bad for skipping out on Katie and Mohawk, and for not getting to see the end of the show, and that today has been such a lovely day and that my crappy, crappy body had to ruin things.

As of Monday, I'm going as gluten free as I can. Out goes the pasta and the bread for a start and we'll see where things lead from there.

Comments

[tau_sigma]

*hugs* That really sucks. Telling you that is clearly of no help, but, well, it does suck. I don't know what I'd do if I had to cut down on gluten. *hugs and offers hot water bottle perhaps*

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

Oh my sweet God why do I not own a hot water bottle? Argh.

There are yellow tulips everywhere in St Andrews. They're all over the Quad, on every side. I keep on meaning to take a photo for you...

[tau_sigma]

I don't either, actually. I keep meaning to buy one of those cute tiny ones with woolly covers like jumpers.

Oh, I do love tulips. :) Durham has quite a few, too, at least there were last year. This year I don't get the bus around the right parts of town to see.

[sevenhelz.livejournal.com]

Gluten-free pasta from tesco, you can make your own rye bread (though it is time consuming) or buy spelt bread if you can find + afford it, and for god's sake make your cheese sauce with cornflour next time.
Until then, many gentle hugs. Get well soon.
xx

[sevenhelz.livejournal.com]

Oh and wheat bags (ironically) are more fun than hot water bottles because they are soft and squishy and you microwave them instead of having to fool around with boiling water.
xx

[sevenhelz.livejournal.com]

Also buy gluten-free flour and, if you get the old packet with the pink label, follow the brownie recipe. If you don't, email me for it.
Also, look up gluten-free girl's blog.
It will be alright.
*hug*
xx

[not-vacillating.livejournal.com]

A month or two back I remember reading a website full of gluten-free recipes, some of which sounded quite good. Want me to see if I can dig out the link?

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

Yes please! That would be ever so helpful. Thank you!

[not-vacillating.livejournal.com]

Let's see:

I was reading about types of flour when I found Dove's Farm, who sell lots of gluten free flour and have a number of recipes.

I've also seen interesting things at the BBC: list of safe store cupboard basics and their recipes;

an old favourite of mine even though I'm not vegan at the moment, The Vegan Society's page gives practically all my favourite foods in gluten-free versions;

and a quick Google turns up a blog on the subject (scroll down past the allergy test details to get to the recipes).

I hope some of those help. And I also hope you'll be posting the results of your experiements!

[not-vacillating.livejournal.com]

(apologies for the unclosed a href tag).

[susie22.livejournal.com]

oh you poor thing, that sounds truly horrific. hope you're back on form today *sends happy thoughts*. we must have a meet up some time before exam craziness starts up ... or if not definitely after that. how long are you around til? :-)

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

I'm around until the day they chuck us out of halls... meeting up would be awesome!

[hyrnetanga.livejournal.com]

*hugs* My mum has a recipe for a gluten free cake which is so tasty I think I could eat a whole one in one go! I am going home next weekend so I'll try and remember to post it/find the recipe online.

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

Any and all cake recipes gratefully recieved, let me tell you!