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Jul. 2nd, 2008 02:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hathycolI'm not doing very well today. I'm not sure why. Today is my day off, I woke up at the reasonable time, etc, etc. Yesterday was a relatively enjoyable day; I know what I'm doing in work now (other than a wail about being cursed when it comes to hotlining orders, don't ask) and we all went out for a drink on the company after work. Good fun.
Today, though, I just feel like shite. I have no energy to even think about doing anything; I went out to Dundee for a change of scenery and just felt so inadequate and invisible that I sort of just gave up and came home. Now I am home, and I have loads to do; I need to research my dissertation (as bloody always), I need to clean my room and sort out my laundry, I need to buy more laundry powder, I need to handwash the dress that Katie lent me, I need to make up some food to freeze, I need to phone the landlady about the massive crack that has appeared in my wall/ceiling overnight. But I don't want to speak to the landlady because I just can't be arsed, because it means I'll need to clean and get most of the postcards off my wall. It doesn't look deep. I'll assume the house isn't going to fall down and tell her before, you know, the end of the lease, as I'm not being charged for this.
I think I need something more concrete to work towards than 'Doctor Who on Saturday and then... er..." I am bored and apathetic and feeling very lonely, probably not helped by constant dreams about Simon and relationships and just... stuff. I would like to go somewhere for a few days, but I only have a day off at a time from work, and given I'm in The Arse End Of Nowhere, this makes things problematic. I'd like to just go out of an evening, chat, go to the cinema, that sort of thing, but town is just dead at the moment.
Right. I'm going to clean my room, handwash that dress, and clean up the kitchen before doing a whole heap of cooking. At least then Hollyoaks is on?
Today, though, I just feel like shite. I have no energy to even think about doing anything; I went out to Dundee for a change of scenery and just felt so inadequate and invisible that I sort of just gave up and came home. Now I am home, and I have loads to do; I need to research my dissertation (as bloody always), I need to clean my room and sort out my laundry, I need to buy more laundry powder, I need to handwash the dress that Katie lent me, I need to make up some food to freeze, I need to phone the landlady about the massive crack that has appeared in my wall/ceiling overnight. But I don't want to speak to the landlady because I just can't be arsed, because it means I'll need to clean and get most of the postcards off my wall. It doesn't look deep. I'll assume the house isn't going to fall down and tell her before, you know, the end of the lease, as I'm not being charged for this.
I think I need something more concrete to work towards than 'Doctor Who on Saturday and then... er..." I am bored and apathetic and feeling very lonely, probably not helped by constant dreams about Simon and relationships and just... stuff. I would like to go somewhere for a few days, but I only have a day off at a time from work, and given I'm in The Arse End Of Nowhere, this makes things problematic. I'd like to just go out of an evening, chat, go to the cinema, that sort of thing, but town is just dead at the moment.
Right. I'm going to clean my room, handwash that dress, and clean up the kitchen before doing a whole heap of cooking. At least then Hollyoaks is on?
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