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[hathycol]

Most people don't know this, but I applied for The Apprentice this year. I spent a lot of time shouting "I COULD DO BETTER THAN THIS" at the telly in the previous series and also I and felt it was a legitimate job opportunity. I am cool with a six figure salary, apart from anything else.

Anyway, glass of wine inside me, I applied. I told the truth and all, with variations on: "I really need a job. Honest, I do. Also I have crazy hair and would therefore make an interesting telly type person. PLEASE GIVE ME AN INTERVIEW." Anyway, I got an e-mail today and I have, in fact, got through to the auditions.

Gosh.

Unfortunately, they have changed the prize to 'money to open your own business' and I on so many levels don't want to do that. You have to go with a business idea. I don't have a business idea and I don't want a business idea so I am not going to go to the auditon and I'm really fucking pissed off about it, actually, because this is the closest I have got to a job interview for months. How tragic is that? And I'm annoyed because for a brief shiny moment I thought I might get to have an adventure, at least, but there is no point in having an adventure down to Birmingham if I don't even want the end result. Plus I am meant to be in Scotland that weekend, and also everyone I mentioned 'O HEY TEEVEE PEOPLE LIKE ME' to just basically laughed at me and talked me out of it anyway, not that is took much doing due to aforementioned change of prize.

It just would have been fun, that's all.

And because I'm pissed off and moody, I came home and weighed myself and I am working really bloody hard on eating well and exercising and the weight won't bastarding shift so I went to the chippy, which of course didn't taste as good as I wanted it too, so now I am filled with self-loathing as well as being pissed off. And living at home is particularly getting on my wick at the moment as I would just like a moment's quiet peace rather than being harrassed all the time.

I haven't felt this much like a teenager in a while.

Comments

[kelemvor.livejournal.com]

I applied for the Apprentice in its first year. I didn't make it past the first round of interviews...

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

See, I know that I wouldn't have either, but it would have been an adventure anyway! Alas, too expensive and tricky an adventure for a dead-end, though.

[tau_sigma]

*hugs* People should not laugh. Just, no. I'm sorry, that may not be what's upsetting you most, but I find it quite upsetting. Also, I am sorry they changed the rules on you! That's also not on, but obviously there's nothing you can do about it. *sigh* Well done for making it, and well done for making the decision that there's no point to go through with it, I don't think that could have been a terribly easy decision.

I can sympathise so very much with the pissed off and moody eating, and the consequent self-loathing. I am about to try to fix it myself by eating a large bowl of strawberries (is there a co-op near you? Co-op strawberries are half price at the moment and are SO GOOD. I want to eat nothing but strawberries for a week!), but I think it's probably not actually going to negate the earlier calories.

I know someone mentioned this before, but exercising builds muscle, and as muscle is denser than fat then I would try not to be too disappointed at no/little apparent change in weight.

[moralrelativist.livejournal.com]

My advice is: go do the Apprentice anyway, but don't angle to win. Instead, get yourself, your organisational skills and your can-do attitude publicly recognised on national telly. People will be falling over themselves to hire you. (Because I know so much, with my leet haxx0r business skillz. :S Still, might be worth a try. It's entirely up to you.)

On the other hand, having you in Scotland is AWESOME and I get to feel not so much a social reject when there's someone else who loves the Mega Drive around. :D

As for the exercise thing, tau_sigma is right. Muscle is damn heavy., Also, try varying the kinds of exercise you do, because after a while your body gets used to a specific exercise and you stop dropping weight as fast.

Fell better (and happier) soon!

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

See, that was actually plan A as I figured that national exposure of my CV week-in, week-out would surely land some form of contract. Unfortunately, now they've changed the format then it is too expensive and tricky an adventure.

Also, I want to come and see the tail end of the Open!

[hathy-col.livejournal.com]

See, all of the above is logical but last night was stompy "ARGH WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY METABOLISM I MAY AS WELL JUST EAT SOME SODDING CHIPS." Now I am thinking 'hey, I fit into stuff I didn't three weeks ago, this is doing some good!'

Strawberries are amazing. Morrisons has them cheap as well so I am getting through about three punnets a week. SO GOOD.